Jan 20th, 2023
2:46 am.
2 hours… I have to be up in 2 hours, I don’t have nights like these very often anymore. But tonight is different. I feel manic, But depressed, and triggered. I saw a razor blade yesterday, while I’d never do it again, it hurts, it actually triggered me so bad. I started to have memories of me hating myself. I’m afraid to sleep tonight. I know it will be easy once I lay down. But right now, I’m afraid the dreams will be haunting… but I have to try.
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